The Feeling of Growth

I would be lying if I said the feeling of growth was not uncomfortable. The way I would describe it, you feel as if you could possibly grow out of your body, as if you are no longer fit where you are anymore. You feel the need for change. Personally, my issue was, where do I start? As a recent college graduate during an ongoing pandemic, I felt as if I had no direction. So I prayed on it, then I made some plans, then I made a move. I was already working and I decided I was going to continue working until I found a job I believed I could fully serve my purpose. I made this decision because I believed it was important to maintain some type of routine while I still figure some things out. I am only 23 years old and I had to constantly remind myself not to rush my enjoyment of life. I also maintained my job due to its flexibility and decided to save enough to pay for a girl’s trip.

Due to the fact that my mind was running miles a minute, I knew I was focusing too much time on what I should do next with my life rather than enjoying life at hand. We decided to book a trip to California and the trip was absolutely breath-taking. The trip was very much enjoyable, but also a reminder that we all have a time limit on our life, but make every part worth it. The feeling of growth can be a beautiful thing, if we look it as such. It is not a matter of having the next planned completely figured out, but to make a move that you believe will increase the stimulation needed in your life. I was so focused on having my foot in the door into my career, I almost forgot to breathe. I know that when I grow older, I want to look back and say that I gave my younger self a chance to take her time. That does not mean just sit back and relax, but when I felt I was in a time-frame I needed to grow, I did not rush the process into the next milestone in life.