Prove YOURSELF Right

It is in those moments that everyone is doubting me, my abilities, my ideas, I finally want to give in and prove them right.

Maybe this isn’t the greatest idea, maybe I am weaker than I thought, and I’m probably not as prepared as I think I am for my next move.....but do IIIIIIII believe that or am I feeding into OTHER people’s beliefs???

I talk to my mom a lot about my fears and negative thoughts and one thing she ALWAYS says is to ‘stay the course.’ I have had the same vision for years in regards to who I will be, what I will look like, how I will think, etc. I have had mentors, teachers, family members help form the idea of who I want to be, but I made the final call. Over time, I have found people on my team and off my team, but the one person who remained on my team was MYSELF and God of course. Sometimes I would go on a drive and have a self talk with myself and it would kind of go like this:

Self: I just feel like when shit hits the fan I have NO ONE to go to. I feel like no one cares, no one is willing to help me, no one wants to see me do better.

Self-Conscious: Well what do you want for yourself? Do you think you deserve better? Do you care about yourself and love yourself? How can you expect anyone to be there for you and you can’t even be there for yourself????

It was those questions alone that kept my head high, because if I am not on my own team then what is the point? If everyone doubted me and I joined the group of doubters, there is not much hope for my own success now is there?

It is so much easier to prove people right because the majority of people think simple of this world. We as a whole do not practice and strengthen our abilities enough to truly understand what we can do and how far we can go in life.

Just like how I would practice for a few months for cheer tryouts then make the team, I expected my overall life to have the same flow: I train for a little bit, then I receive my reward.

LIFE is an everyday training: there is no final date where we master everything, we are always learning. It is on the hard days that I reconsider my vision and the steps I have taken towards it already. I think about starting my entire cycle over, then I realize how ridiculous I sound.

There will be difficult days and days that maybe you need to readjust some of your plans, but that does not mean quit. Take a step back and reevaluate how far you have come, and that will sometimes help determine where you should go next. We can easily overwhelm ourselves by thinking so BIG, but remember that small steps eventually create a staircase. If you are going to prove anyone right, let it be yourself first.